Wednesday, December 17
Early to bed, early to rise, however the word of phrases characterized and show something for me it does not matter how late I got to bed, it’s the same time where I usually wake up every morning but very late often. Today it was too early when my sleep was over. Honks and gearing of cars, yelling and walking of people till dawn never stop. First thing I go to bathroom, shave my head and then I start to recite my daily prayers. It was cloudy and drizzling when I got outside. Then I take long step before I get wet. I made my offering and walk to my chair where I usually have my morning coffee and tea. When my ceremony was over I accompanied Tashi for lunch. We had fried beans, rice and turkey dishes. Having lunch I felt drowsy and bored. Hours later I meet with Liz and went out to refresh. It was cool and refreshing along the street. She bought a chocolate and cookies. When my prayer was over, I walk back to my home among New Yorkers. Especially during evening it’s hard to find way through large masses. Sometimes with dash one another, lame excuse was not enough but they turn back with a white eyes. Still then amongst million it’s only few so I never mind. I cook my dinner of rice and dish of curry every meal. When plate lie in front of my table, I just think back of different food stuffs here at New York that I will be missing soon, but I will try every foods before I leave for Bhutan.
December 19th, 2008 at 2:20 pm
After 9/11 my life was completely altered. I moved far away from New York City
and I am now so close to the Canadian border that I could reach out and touch Montreal. However, even though I have been through much pain and physical suffereing and came here very close to death. I was fortunate, however, to be in a house in the woods. Deer, rabbits, wild turkeys and lovely birds came to visit in my drive way. My home was situated close to a Christmas tree nursery and I had a beautiful view of Camel’s Hump. But, the solitude and quiet was unbelievable. It gave me the opportunity of intense meditation that was totally undisturbed. It was the perfect opportunity to comune with nature and with the inner self. However, I could no longer afford to live in that house and was forced to move to a more urban Setting. It is Vermont and even near a Mall it is realtively quiet and graffitii free. The constant meditation was a much needed break in my life. I had just gotten out of a 23 year marriage.
And this seemed like a phase that was necessary. I now am looking forward to moving to Cambridge, Mass where I will once again hear the “sounds of the city”. the quiet and the noise are both extremes, I hope to find the middle way with a bit of both. Bless you. Suzan
December 23rd, 2008 at 7:05 pm
Thanks, Wow! What a wonderful place you are in,i feel much more than a paradise to my heart a words you mean to say. Life is alike shadow where it is illusory thing, a snap our life turns into ashes. Keeping in mind, we had to free every attachment where we can lead happy life. World is full of sorrows and sufferings, but it’s root cause is only a our desire which is never ending. So work for the benefits of living sentient being for a smallest thing and turn back when you lie on your pillow. What had you done for the day. Have you done any good deeds or bed, neither one. As day turn to dark,is it really the day is changing or our life. In my eyes, i feel our life but not the days. Remember death none can halt either by means of bribery, nor by wealth but only by means of practising Dharma.Belive in rebirth and death that death is certain, but to reborn is uncertain. Do you why?. Thanks